Dan 10:8-12 Therefore I was left alone, and saw this great vision, and there remained no strength in me. For my beauty was turned within me to corruption, and I kept no strength. Yet I heard the voice of his words. And when I heard the voice of his words, then I was in a deep sleep on my face, and my face was toward the ground. And behold, a hand touched me, which set me shaking on my knees and the palms of my hands. And he said to me, O Daniel, a man greatly beloved, understand the words that I speak to you, and stand upright. For to you I am now sent. And when he had spoken this word to me, I stood trembling. Then he said to me, Do not fear, Daniel; for from the first day that you set your heart to understand and to chasten yourself before your God, your words were heard. And I have come for your words.
Just a quick run through of this passage; Daniel has a great vision, and as this vision comes to him he feels his strength leave him, and he says that yet he was able to hear and know the words spoken to him. At first Daniel was trembling, but now he stood as he was called beloved. And the Man says to him, “Do not fear, Daniel; for from the first day that you set your heart to understand and to chasten yourself before your God, your words were heard.” How many times have we felt inadequate before God? How many times have you received a dream or vision from God that scared you to your core? I want to point out that it is ok to be scared and feel inadequate at times, but it is imperative that we deal with these thoughts and feelings according to His truth – to come to a place where we understand who He wants us to be. Note that He says to Daniel the condition of being connected and heard was Daniel’s understanding and consequently chastening himself before God. It is so very important to take care of our own hearts, to be responsible with our feelings and accountable when it comes to the fear we experience.
Many scriptures in the Bible are bilateral, two sided, multi-faceted, or even just plain conditional, if you will. We have Scripture urging and directing us to DO for the kingdom; praying for sick, preaching, evangelising, and giving to the poor. But there is also the side of Scripture urging and directing us to tend to our own hearts and callings. It is easy to justify neglect of our own hearts if it is going well with our ministry efforts, it is easy to be ignorant of the culprits of our own fears and shortcomings while having miracles and saved souls to show for our efforts. We tend to base our goodness on the extent of our good deeds. Yes, He has called us to minister and DO, but He has also called us to be children. As children our hope is in Him, and we consequently purify ourselves and live holy. One trademark of a child is the absolute rest and dependency they have on their fathers (and mothers). My daughter doesn’t need to assert on waking every morning that Carlo is her father, she rests in this fact, and knows she will be taken care of and have her needs met, she also doesn’t need to pronounce his name in Greek for him to know when she is addressing him. In return we rest in the fact that our love and guidance will steer her towards purity and holiness. It is the same with the heart of God
1John 3:1-3 Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not. Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him; for we shall see him as he is. And every man that hath this hope in him purifieth himself, even as he is pure.
Even the great commandment to love Him is two sided, He says love the Lord your God, and your neighbor as yourself….you are to love yourself, too. HE wants you to be kind, patient, long-suffering, and forgetful of wrongs, supportive, loyal, trusting, hopeful, and full of joy about and to YOU. God desires every area of our lives to be relational to Him and with Him. When we do minister and operate in gifts, it is as an outflow of His working in us. There is no way we can maintain effective ministry based on our own efforts and works without love. God says, love prophecy and understand all knowledge, move mountains and speak with the angels, but without love it all means nothing. And not just loving others, you have to love you.
1Timothy 4:14-16 Do not neglect the gift in you, which was given you by prophecy, with the laying on of the hands of the body of elders. Meditate on these things; be in these things in order that your improvement may appear to all. Hold on to yourself and to the doctrine; continue in them, for doing this you shall both save yourself and those who hear you.
The word “hear” also means “to understand.” Just as Daniel understood God, so others will understand you and be saved by your words and just as God came for Daniels words, if you hold on to yourself, to what HE made you, if you continue in and meditate on the gift He put in you. He paid a high price for you, and the value of the gifts are priceless, yet He says they mean nothing if we do not also operate in love towards others and ourselves.
God loves you, and He wants to have a relationship with you. Today, I want to tell you that you are both important and significant. God thinks you are amazing. My husband likes to tell anyone who would listen that God wouldn’t pay such a high price, the life of His Son, if He didn’t consider you worthy and of great value – you will not pay for something you feel is broken, worthless, and not worth the effort. I want to point out that nothing you do can invalidate the price He paid or detract from the value He sees in you. It is because He loves us so, and places such immense value on our hearts that He ardently and consistently pursues us, passionately and fiercely yearning for a love connection with His own.
We are His people, you are His person. He loves you.